[kbl]

I am on CD 18, 5-6 DPO? No testing/charting this month. Using pre-seed for the first time. Plan to test the 27th. Started AF the 5th, BD EOD from 13th to 19th, What seemed to be O Symptoms the 16th & 17th-usually earlier than that. Had some spotting on the 17th, which has happened occasionally around O time (maybe 3x in the past). Lower abdominal area tender since the 13th. Becoming more uncomfortable starting with what seemed to be O symptoms. Somewhat on and off discomfort started on my right side on the 20th. Tried to convince myself it was from being constipated, but it has not gone away and I am certainly not constipated any longer. Both sides now have dull ache that increases and settles off and on through the day. Today I feel like I have impending AF cramps. I do not usually get those until a few hours prior to actual flow. I am not expecting AF until Oct 1st and I am usually very on time every 26 days. Breasts are typical post O/Pre AF tender, with a one time significantly noticeable pain/twinge at the side of each. Have been extra gassy and bloated. Have been tired, but attributed it to lack of proper sleep lately. Drop in immune system-cold sore cropped up without the usual triggers. Occasional headaches, perhaps due to reduction in water consumption. Peeing frequently as though I am drinking my usual amount of water.

We are currently traveling/out of town (for work) which affects the normal routine of sleep, water consumption and elimination functions. We have had these trips before without me feeling this way.

I am trying not to get my hopes up. I am also trying not to get my DH's hopes up. It would make it hard to surprise him if I were to discuss all these things with him. He knows about the crampy feelings and prayed that nothing is wrong. I hope to surprise him by putting stickers on my belly and having him look. Someone did that recently and I thought the idea was great. I will tell him I feel a bit feverish and am starting to get a rash and have him look. hehe! I won't tell him it is baby feverish, lol. I bought some cute stickers yesterday. I almost bought some other stuff, but I have to refrain and stay calm. Especially since we are staying with the in-laws at the moment and have agreed to surprise the family at Thanksgiving if we are pregnant before then.

Okay, I have written a book, any thoughts? Am I a victim of IPS again or should I be hopeful?

[bydesign]

Hope is always a good thing. I'm hoping with you.

[kbl]

bydesign, on 23 September 2009 - 09:55 AM, said:

Hope is always a good thing. I'm hoping with you.

Aw Thanks. Sometimes I lose interest in getting hopeful and excited, but this month we have been full on excitement. I continue to have some reasons to be hopeful, but I am trying to stay neutral about the pending result, public/style_emoticons/default/hmmm.gif . haha

[LisaS]

oooo!!! exciting indeed

[kbl]

LisaS, on 24 September 2009 - 03:18 PM, said:

oooo!!! exciting indeed

I got so excited at 9 DPO that I ruined the test. I put the pee in the wrong spot! The control line did not even show up. SO then I wasted my digi. Oh well. I tested again yesterday (13 DPO) with a dollar store test and just white space not even a hint of pink. AF is supposed to start tomorrow, so we shall see. I have not given up hope yet. I still have some symptoms: Still aware of a feeling in my uterus, tired even with good sleep, bloated, sore boobs (longer than usual), extra sensitive while intimate with DH, a bit more cranky, off and on headache, peeing more volume, slightly dizzy earlier today and I may be forgetting something. Now I seem to be coming down with a cold (stuffy, sneezing), which hasn't happened in over two years. Maybe it is related, maybe it is just from being in different peoples homes lately. Oh and I did not spot like usual 4-5 days prior to AF or get the tale-tale pimple. Mmmh??

I really wonder when I will test positive. I have a weird family history. My Mom had her "periods" through-out her entire pregnancies and did not test positive until about 4 months along. My DH said wait until I have a big round belly!! Like either one of us could be that patient, lol.

[tiffanniwi]

Sounds promising! Can't wait to hear.

[Sombra]

KBL, Could you update us on your living situation? are you still living in a tent? Is your house built yet?.. looking forward to hearing about that round belly.

[kbl]

Sombra, on 30 September 2009 - 10:45 PM, said:

KBL, Could you update us on your living situation? are you still living in a tent? Is your house built yet?.. looking forward to hearing about that round belly.

HAHA, Sorry I had to laugh. I guess I really have not been sharing much here.

We have not been in a tent for quiet a while now. We have been house sitting for some friends for over a year. We have our own space there, so even when the owners come out, nothing changes for us. It is a short drive from our property. At our place: we have the foundation done, our water and roads in. We have done some much needed forestry. At this point we have everything paid off and are not wanting to go in debt. So we will continue to go forward as income allows.

This is tmi, but can anyone tell me if loose bowels are an early symptom? I usually have the opposite situation and now 3 times I have been surprised.

[kbl]

I am confused. AF started in the middle of the day on what would have been my last day. It was a bit unusual, I would likely have ignored the differences though if I was not analyzing everything. My previous hopeful symptoms basically stopped 2 days prior to AF actually starting.

It has been a year since we have really been trying, so I have been a bit sad and feeling hopeless.
Another thing is I am wondering how I would know if I had an early m/c. That may sound silly because descriptions are posted everywhere, but with endo my periods are painful and full of clots normally. In some ways I think I don't want to know, but I can't help but wonder... I am rarely ever late and I have only had one other month that I had such convincing symptoms. I guess I am just thinking out loud like that will somehow help. Sometimes I think I should just forget about all of this and get back to my life, but hope won't let go of us. Anyway, if you feel impressed to pray for us, I would appreciate it, as we feel alone in this long tarrying time.

[o0o0i0o]

Praying...

[bydesign]

praying