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blegh
#6
Posted 28 November 2009 - 08:40 PM
no, tin taste was last month.. this was a conception on the 10th, implantation spot on 14th, 3 days late with my period, no positive pg test, bright red bleeding Thurs, Friday, big tissue clots today, major cramps and lots of gushing bleeding..
My life is a mess.. and this was just the top of it all.
Why is my womb so cursed, Why is the fruit of my womb being taken from me. What else do I have to learn about leaning on God, about obeying Him, about worshiping Him, about submitting to Him.. about trusting HIM...
This isn't the same as Sarah, Rebekkah and Rachel's barrenness - their wombs were waiting for the right time to bring forth life... My womb is allowing life to be created, and then rejecting it. Where is the woman in scripture who has lived this one out? where is the woman in scripture for me to lean on. Even Hannah was Barren.. atar - not empty, and lifeless... but being tilled, being fallowed, waiting for the perfect time, for all other things to happen so that the baby would be born at the right time in history..
but that's not the case with me..
and I don't know why..
My life is a mess.. and this was just the top of it all.
Why is my womb so cursed, Why is the fruit of my womb being taken from me. What else do I have to learn about leaning on God, about obeying Him, about worshiping Him, about submitting to Him.. about trusting HIM...
This isn't the same as Sarah, Rebekkah and Rachel's barrenness - their wombs were waiting for the right time to bring forth life... My womb is allowing life to be created, and then rejecting it. Where is the woman in scripture who has lived this one out? where is the woman in scripture for me to lean on. Even Hannah was Barren.. atar - not empty, and lifeless... but being tilled, being fallowed, waiting for the perfect time, for all other things to happen so that the baby would be born at the right time in history..
but that's not the case with me..
and I don't know why..
#8
Posted 29 November 2009 - 10:37 AM
oh honey! i am so sorry. the loss of a child is traumatizing and so hard...every time! i don't know why this is happening, but i do know that everything we go through in our lives leads us to where God would have us be. His plan is in action, even when we don't understand it...please, remember that He is walking with you through this valley, and He loves you even more than we do. you have my number if you need to chat, i'm always happy to chat with you. big healing hugs.
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