Christian UC: Unassisted Childbirth

The Unassisted Birth of Victoria

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As the story begins, there are still alot of unkept feelings about this birth. Victoria has opened my eyes in many different ways. Most have disappointed me. About sin and the way children are sinful and selfish. I wanted to live in the "ideal" that my babies did no wrong.

I started going into to early labor no Thursday night. Slight water leakage. Some contractions that felt much like it began with Samuel. They pettered out. So I went to bed. Friday Will stayed home. NOTHING. Saturday we had a blast, we went to a local pioneer farm festival! Sunday we went and got some pictures developed from Saturday in a near by town.

Monday I woke up with more contractions. I was afraid for Will to go to work. He was working that day about 30 miles away and I wasn't sure I would know when it started getting hard.

Well it was hard most of the day. I tried to suclude myself, as I felt the boys were really impeding labor. Finally (as I cried) I called my mom and asked her to come and pick up the boys. That these babe(s) were NOT going to come with the boys here! I was so disappointed. But I was TIRED of labor, so I settled!

Will and I head up to the third floor ( we are in the process of remodeling for a family bed room. it has a huge closet for everyone's clothes and a sink and toliet for those middle of the night tinkles!) again for the third time, to "get busy". I bought one of those tubs, but we just got swtiched to rural water, and for some reason there is more clorine. Every time I got into the pool my skin would just reek! So I didn't get in, this time. Will had already emptied and filled to pool a couple of times. I had set up a "nest" on Thursday night. I was just waiting!!!!

So I was squating some and then found a comfy position on the bed that was on the floor. I sat on my legs and would lean forward, with my hands on my knees, during a contaction so it would be like a squat. I did drink "purple cows". What my mom calls them! LOL Grape juice and half and half mixed together. Yummy!

Contractions were intense. I was frusterated. A bad attitude! I was mad at this baby for taking my boys away and for them to be taking so long. So I would say my attitude contributed to more pain.

She finally started coming down... I am not sure the times, but it was about 20 min from when my water broke and she was born. My water bust, this was the first time my water has bust not in water. LOL I was surprised at how much water there was. A few more contractions and she was here. I said " I sure hope there isn't another one" LOL I was pooped!!! She was crying... Later I watched the video and she BOUNCED on the bed!!! :-O so no wonder! it took me a while to calm her down.

So I bet you are all wondering how she reminded me about sin and selfishness. She brought out a BAD attitude in me. Not sure but I think it was always there, just the Holy Spirit using this time to show me. And seeing how she was born RIGHT after the boys left, it showed me how selfish children are. AND how selfish I am/was. Also, the week Will was home, I saw how Samuel was running our household. We were doing EVERYTHING to keep him "happy". We told him no a lot. And when he was getting spanked it was for the wrong reasons.

Another thing struck me, I flipped on the radio about two weeks after Victoria was born, I only heard one sentence. "Paul was says to his people while he was in jail, 'You can tell who a person really is in the midst of suffering.'" Talk about a blow!!!!!!!!!!!! I was really suffering, had been for weeks befor Victoria was born and the week after had some pretty violent after birth pains. I had some work to do. My house wasn't where the Lord wanted it. I came upon 2 websites, both about child training and character building. But one was also about me and marriage, and Jezebel. I was the dominate Jezebel. Looking at my life with Will, the car accident he was in might not have happened if it weren't for me. and many other pretty bad things that have happened. Now I don't really know how to approach him about a subject without questioning whether I am being Jezebel or not. Which is a good thing! Just not really sure where I stand, kind of lost. And Will, well he doesn't know what to do with himself either. It is weird right now in our house, but I am sure that God will lead us just like he has so far.

Well there it is, our journey to Victoria.

Love
Naomi

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