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Naomi's Journal
Expecting September 2003
Tue Jul 01, 2003
my first ...or second entry.... awww who is counting.
Good afternoon! I am going to try this again today! As I am not a very consistent person! But I will do my best at putting entries in when something is going on.
I am 6 weeks behind Amanda so that makes me due in 11 weeks. Yikes when you say it like that....it seems so short. but if you say 3 months that seems like a long time. Isn't funny how we rationalize when pregnant?
Anyway, I am 23 and this is my fifth pregnancy. My husband is Will and he is also 23. We were married at 19(me) and 18(dh). right out of high school. Will felt a push to go to bible college. But we got married anyway, much to the church's dismay... humm...guess they haven't read 1 Timothy 4 huh?
Anyway, he didn't go. His brother was born 3 months after we were married with a heart defect and we ended up taking on alot of the parenting responsiblities of their household until they got things in order. Shortly after that, Will was in a MAJOR car accident. He couldn't work for 2 months. Forgot to mention that we conceived a baby the day Will's brother with the heart defect was born so I was pregnant.
So during all of this stress, I went to two doctor's visits, or maybe three... can't remember now. But they were awfully invasive and disturbing! I was stumped and wondered what I was going to do next. My mom had a friend who had birthed her babies with a midwife, so she called her. She said "Oh you don't need a midwife. You just need God!"So I check out books about having babies. I just read parts of this and that to Will and just told everyone we were still just looking for a midwife. (Even though we never once called one. It is really weird about this because it seems like time went so fast. I was the only one working and coming home to a husband in bed was very devastating!)
Anyway, we finally told Will's parents we were having the baby at home by ourselves. They were fine with it! WOW! Praise the Lord! So we did. Christian was born unassisted on Jan 18, 2000. It was cold and snowy! A very long labor! Very painful! I still hadn't read about unassisted birth anywhere and still delivered like what the world sees. A women in labor looking for a savior!
Then just months later I concieved again. Even though I was nursing. I miscarried a baby "girl" named Grace Elizabeth.
Then we concieved Samuel and he was born unassisted April 1 , 2002. A very empowering birth as I never ONCE looked to Will as my savior. Only Jesus is capable of carrying that load!
Then we concieved again when Samuel was about 8 mon. I miscarried a "boy" William Bryant.
Now here were are Will and I have been married for 4 and a half years and I am pg with our fifth baby! Third earthly! We still have no idea what we are doing for the labor of this baby. I thought Will really wanted me to have a water birth (I know it isn't up to him, but he was putting off some vibes that way!) And I am just not sure. We chatted about it yesterday and he really seems to have changed his thinking on it which surprised me. I am not sure what I want. I don't know that it really matters to me. I think I might just build a "nest" somewhere. so I have a designated birth spot! That will be the one thing I would miss about the water birth.
Anyway... that is who we are and where we have been.
love
Naomi
Wed Jul 09, 2003
3 months to go??? well who knows anyway!
I just thought it would be fun to post a story about my due dates. I used to chart and then I got lazy. I had babies even when we were charting and "NOT" having *** when we "thought" we weren't supose to. So now I don't chart. ha ha
Anyway... I had Samuel in April and learned I was pregant again in October of 2002. I had a miscarriage the week before christmas. I had only one cycle before I was pg again in October. After the miscarriage I didn't have another cycle. Sometimes after a miscarriage (as I was still nursing 100% of Samuel's diet) the period can come back when ever it wants. So without a cycle I learned I was pregnant the end of February or first of March.
So where does that leave us? I have NO earthly clue when this baby is "due". Well within the month. ha ha ha... But a due date or nothing. It was funny with Samuel I kept forgetting how far along I was. No one to remember and why did it matter anyway?!!?
So here I am again, thinking I was just forgetting when I was due and I got out my calendar and tried to find a note of when we conceived and I remembered. We don't know! LOL
It is a running joke around here when this baby will how his/her face! At least my husband's family isn't mad at me for not "running" to the doc to get an ultrasound and see "when" the baby is due. They think it is funny! And I think it is great not knowing!!!!
Tue Jul 15, 2003
hormones? stress? third trimester?... are the children different?
or is it me? Oh my, my beautiful, compliant obedient children. Have transformed into monsters. I have been saying to myself now for 3 weeks, " I can't make it ANOTHER week with my children acting this way. " And here it is going into the fourth week and it is getting worse.
Christian (he is three in case you forgot) was a GREAT child. I could trust him to obey the first command and come when he is told! Up until a few weeks ago. He can't hear his name, he can't hear no or yes for that matter. He cries all the time and oh my what have I done. I have lost my child! This is NOT Christian whom I am talking about here. Everyone around me just says oh he is just acting like a child. YesChristian does act like a child. He is one and he wasn't perfect. BUT one day he woke up and he wasn't
Christian anymore!
Now he acts like Samuel. LOL he is 16 months. He also can't hear his name or stop when told no. But he never has, so that doesn't suprise me! But it is stressful as I know something is wrong with this picture and I just need to type it out so I can sort it out and stop blaming myself for who knows what and FIX IT! So pray for me. I am off to mediate about my son. I know God will give me the answers!
Or maybe it is just me and the stress of a new baby! I am excited but very stressed about it all right now. I am exhausted. I am also thinking as I am typing we all need more multi's and that would help! I am off to order some of those also! Maybe even some calcium for Christian and Samuel.Samuel is teething so he is up most nights crying. I will give him homeopathics for teeth and he will calm right down and sleep. Samuel is also only nursing 2 times a day. and I am contemplating just having him stop all together. It takes him 5 minutes to get out about 1 ounce of what appears and looks like pure butter. and he doesn't need any more fat....
also Samuel is about 28 pounds. and still growing. I just made him 36 poquito type diapers and he grew out of them! HOLY COW! SO NOW i get to make 36 x large diapers and 36 newborn diapers! brother.....
well best be going... Samuel is wanting my lovin'!
and i can't even see what i am typing anymore. "bbbbb" lol
Fri Jul 18, 2003
dropping asleep and sleeping until i wake with... a belly ache!!!!
Either I am having BH all night long or I am getting BEAT UP! LOL
I wake up every morning with a sore tummy! The top and sides. Too weird!
just wanted to note it!
short and sweet eh?
Naomi
Wed Jul 23, 2003
today... just pondering life with a newborn
OH do I miss carrying a new tiny baby in a sling! I LONG to carry this baby in the sling! MIL had her baby 2 days ago. We will visit tonight and I am debating on whether or not to take my sling. Just for a peek. I asked her, but warned her I may never want to take him out!
Her labor was long. This kind of scares me as Samuel's was short and painless and Christian's was LONG and painful! I am also weary of proving my half and half theroy wrong! LOL Ya know, it is like when you say : "oh my children are so obedient" then one turns around and dashes into the street! YIKES!
Anyway.... I am still thinking a land birth, though I am nervous that the water DID really contribute! ya know?? But I DON"T want the hassle of water. Just not quite sure what to think.
I was thinking I should measure my belly and take pictures this week! I will post them when I do. I get 10 inches from top of uterus to bottom of "hump" that is standing.... maybe I need directions on how exactly to measure fundal height!
I have diapers diapers diapers to make and I havn't wanted to sit at the machine! YIKES! Maybe next week! I got some fold over elastic. It is ok but I think I like topstitching and turning better. so that is what I am doing! I will get busy sewing. I did find some awesome sling fabric for $1. a yard at WalMart. SO I have enough to make 4 dydimos type slings!
Anyway, my update for the week, and WHY OH WHY CAN"T I REMEMBER TO TAKE MY VITAMINS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
love
Naomi
ps we ordered 3 new car seats for the boys and new baby,they are awesome, I am so tired of the children hating riding in the car. so i decieded to go ALL out and buy them comfortable seats!!!!!!!!!!!! NO MORE COMPLAINING!!!! I mean who would like to sit on a kitchen chair for hours in a bumpy car, eeh? Not this chick oh yeah and ragbri is this week. 800 bikers and there crews come through this tiny town it will triple in size tonight as it is fair week also. Tents and showers in peoples yards.... kinda a funny site. I will send a pix with my belly shot!
Tue Aug 12, 2003
two months to go? was it really a month ago...
The last time I posted in the journals was a month ago. i can't believe it!
The breast fest was awesome. i held a friend online's baby matthias. 8 weeks. I HAVE BABY FEVER!!!!!!! LOL it sure is a good thing I have a baby coming soon!
I will ask her if it is ok if I post our picture here. Also I promised you all belly shots! I will do it! I will! I need to borrow my mom's camera this week! My belly is getting bigger and bigger. i am wondering why i am so incredably uncomfortable this time. i don't remember wanting the baby out so bad! Not that it is tons of pain but just unease. the baby is constantly telling me I need to move into a different postion. I want the baby out cause I want a baby to carry in my sling.
What an exciting new feeling. I have never felt this way before. DYING to hold and meet my precious baby. With my last two I was nervous about parenting and dealing with another child and learning what needs to happen through my day. Finally I am at peace about these things and I feel as though I can just be. I know what God wants from me in these areas (not that I don't need to work on them)
I am sewing still. Samuel now has a few more diapers that fit him more comfortably! I have 12 newborns that need elastic , turned, and topstitched.
Another fun thought, My mom thought of a great idea for a christmas present. New dishes. We have a big family so I like to use real dishes when we get together. Most of my sets have broken. :( It will be so nice to not have to use paper when everyone comes to dinner!
I don't know, I think a PALM would be nice too... maybe my husband can get me one of those! Well I should get off of here, not much else to update about. Better get sewing though. Boy to i have a hankering to get out my needles and knit! Maybe some new baby booties!
Tue Aug 26, 2003
i wish i would have gotten to the computer sooner! to tell you...
We are having twins!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Here is how we found out!
On Friday night I was talking with a friend who just asked if we did heart tones? I said no! I don't.... do them except for fun... She said ok for fun go see if you have one low and then around you navel. I asked why, she thought it looked like we were having twins.
Well I got off the phone and went and checked it out. I could only find one heart tone where I "knew" one baby was sitting! But finding heart tones is really hard I found out. I had forgotten why we only did it once with Christian! LOL
So a day went by and I thought she was pretty much crazy! Then that next night I was laying in bed and was just feeling the baby and feeling all the arms and legs.... thinking I KNOW I never felt so OBVOIUSLY arms and legs with the last two.... WAY UP NEXT to my rib cage and thinking this baby doesn't move from here, BUT
I feel kicks and twists and flipps WAYYY down low!!! So I had Will hold his hand on the baby up top. So I would know if it was the same or other baby!
I found the other baby.... legs and arms and head and waist... i could feel it all! Also found out the bottom baby slips behind the placenta(s) ALOT! Cause I can only find her/his head sitting RIGHT next/on top of my pubic bone!
Well, oh my word. life has been crazy since the findings that I am going to be mom to four. I am crying all the time. I am an emotional WRECK. I LOVE the idea of having twins. BIRTHING TWINS... but life will be SOOO DIFFERENT!
Wow the life part is always what stressses me so.... well baby is awake...
I am thinking I will have them soon... within three to five weeks! since they normally come at 37 weeks. I havn't done anyresearch on life with twins as it is way too stressful! i am just trying to get diapers done!
let's see.... i hope to post a picture tonight of my belly and where the two babies are sitting!
love to all!
Naomi
PS and of course we are going UC!!!!!!!!!! and possibly even videoing!
Thu Sep 04, 2003
the lusted after... belly shots
Well here I am posting these pictures, THANKS TO LISA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The one in the yellow shirt is me Aug 23, 2003 about 35 weeks. Measuring 28.5 cm. I appear to be the same size I always am at this many weeks.... nothing strange here though it seems weird!
the one in the gray shirt is me Sept 2, 2003 about 36 weeks. Measureing 38 cm. YES THAT IS 10 CM BIGGER!!! and it is obvious eh??? LOL wow... i must be having twins... no doubt here! you?
love to all, enjoy!!!!!!!!!!!
Fri Sep 05, 2003
Babies Babies Babies
Well I am just a bunch of smiles and joy today! Though I still don't have my Fold Over Elastic. Who sends parcel post from Maine anyway and it takes 2 weeks when you can send it priority for about 75 cents more and it will be here in about 3 days! URGH!!! anyway.....
continuing on mith my joy and smiles! LOL
My birth Pool came today...... I am waiting until Christian wakes up and then we are going to get it out. Maybe even blow it up just for fun. I bought the bigger pump so it should be no problem! It is just a little 15 dollar pool that Jami recommended! LOL THANKS JAMI!!!!!!!!!!
So I am snapping away.... putting snaps on diapers... my grandma just put out 12 Poquito type Pants in a week! WOOHOOO grandma! they just need snaps and elastic. I feel like I should have diapers coming out my ears and clothes too.... a time when it really would be nice if i knew if it was a girl combo or a boy combo or one of each..... cause I have TONS of boy but only a few girl. I would like to be the one to shop too, when I have to buy them...ya know? oh well. my husband isn't very good at that sort of thing. Though he is better than most. I do have sisters too..
Also I forgot I sewed up 22 wipes today and have 20 still sitting on the table to buzz around!
Be blessed. I know i am and am thanking the Lord in between the "are you sure that my tummy can get bigger, God? " LOL
love
Sun Sep 07, 2003
Oh the doubt... What Yvonda talks about
Boy can I relate to what Yvonda is talking about in her entries about having two babies.
The only CLEAR and definate difference is that I prayed and asked God to show us if we were having twins. And there was definatly two babies in my tummy that night. I can't see how one would have slipped out! LOL Without my noticing! ???
So my doubt is wether or not we are having two babies. Cause I really KNOW God showed me that. But I still doubt God. You know like whether he really DID show me that! (rolling my eyes!) Yes I realize how dumb that sounds. The devil is really playing with my foot hold on this one. Help me Lord, to know the truth and live the truth!
Other stuff I am struggling with is my elastic STILL ISN'T here. How am I supose to finish these wonderful diapers my Grandma is putting together.
yesterday we went shopping for bigger clothes. NOTHING WOULD FIT! :( What am I supose to wear?
I am still small for how big people normally get with twins. what are people wearing? Also I prayed before I left that if there was something to find for me to wear that I would find it! There was nothing! Does that mean the babies will be here soon? or just something else? What could it mean? That i am not going to grow out of the clothes I have? HA! Or that I am just supose to buy blinds and walk around naked! HA HA! and never go anywhere?
oh well, lunch just beeped....here i come fishy fishy fishy!!!
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